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pictures I wish to see on my wall someday


  • Mood: Wow!
  • Listening to: Bad Boy- Cascada
  • Watching: Amnesia
  • Drinking: Vitaminwater
If I'm not an artist than what the hell am I? I have been struggling with this for so long.

I love art, all of it. My interests are not restricted because I'm fascinated by medium, craft, and skill. I love art. I love it to the point I find myself having to do something myself but when my pen hits the paper I am over-ridden with such anxiety and doubt. I have had so many supportive friends, a fiance, family, and I can even see what I'm good at, so why then? Why do I personally feel like my work is never good enough, not worth it, could be better, etc. Honestly I have read enough blogs, magazines, books, and even talked to professionals to figure out how to proceed in my own work. I literally feel a lump in my throat every time I want to make something artistic, fun, exciting, mine, and I just can't. I know I'm not the only person who feels this way and I understand that. I know even the best artist can feel like the art they make isn't worth it despite the contrary belief. Bottom line is I don't want to feel this way about my art. It's mine and will always be mine for better or worse.

I just want to take my anxiety, beat the hell out of it, and tell it to leave me the fuck alone!


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United States
Current Residence: Consumption Town
Favourite genre of music: New Age
Favourite photographer: My Mom
Favourite style of art: Everything
MP3 player of choice: My Black Stone
Skin of choice: My Own
Favourite cartoon character: Calvin & Hobbes, Jubei K., Ran K.
Personal Quote: "Only the truest of dreamers can succeed the Odyssey"



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shiyiyu Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2015  Student General Artist
hi~~ my print is now available~~ and again im soo glad u liked it~~hug…
Audessy Featured By Owner Edited Apr 6, 2015
Holy crap I love that clip! It's actually from one of my top fav Supernatural episodes :) Awesome for making it a print. Top of my wishlist and print to buy :hug: thank you
carol-colors Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2014
:thanks: Thank you for the :+fav: (coloring)
marakov Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave xD
Audessy Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014
Of course. I looked at your picture and I was immediately entranced by the colors and the atmosphere you created. It put off a mystical and magical feel to it, the light off the jellyfish enhanced it for me as well as the girl's serene expression :) You do amazing work. Also, thank you for the :+fav: too :heart:
marakov Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
I'm so happy to read this, so happy to pass those feelings 
thank you very much xD
Audessy Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014
anytime :blowkiss:
DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks a lot for adding my work to your collection.
Audessy Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014
Of course I would you're freaking awesome :D I love the atmosphere you create for each picture you make, it's great.
gensan613 Featured By Owner May 24, 2013
Thank you for the fav ^^
Ev-sta Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2012
Thanks a lot for faving my work! i appreciate it :)
rosedore Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2010
Hello my dear! How are you doing? Haven't heard from you for so long. I hope you're well. I miss you. :hug: :heart:
MistRaven Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
thanks so much for faving my work sweetie
:heart::icondance-4u::iconkissingplz::icondance-4u: :heart:
Kesline Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for the watch!
Audessy Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2010
it's a real pleasure :heart:
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